As I'm writing this, I'm currently laying in my room (in an egg crate mind you) for the very last time. Moving back in with the parents for a few days before I leave. It seems so unreal that I'm leaving...I'm actually going to do this. For the most part I am excited for what God will bring my way, but I have had a handful of moments where I think to myself, "What the heck am I thinking???". But alas, there's no turning back. I am always somewhat reluctant to change regardless of my excitement. I have great friends, good family and an amazing church---but I feel as though this is my next step. People ask me all the time if I'm scared about going somewhere where I don't speak the language or know anyone--truth of the matter is, I am more scared to stay here. God has been tugging on my heart to leave my comfort zone and I'm excited to be able to learn more about Him and to be able to lean on Him more to find my purpose in this world. Time to start anew, be closer to God and start living the life that will glorify the One that died for me....I will miss everyone dearly, but I feel that is my time to go and be off on my own and experience new things...new phase of life...it's gonna be crazy good :) God has been more than faithful to me and everyone else who also have been undeserving...so I think I'm ready...tears will come in the next few days as I say my goodbyes, I'm sure of it. 'Til we meet again my friends...next blog will be written in another country..my new home; South Korea. Future's so bright, I gotta wear shades.
P.S. Please pray that I will find a church home that will challenge me and have opportunities for me to serve in their various ministries.
Ahhh! Get it, Wendy! I am ALWAYS resistant to change, but then God blows me out of the water with what he has in store on the other side. Nerves now, blessings beyond comprehension later.
ReplyDeleteYou are the perfect person to encounter change, you look it in the eye and say "bring it on."
Though we'll be (what feels like) millions of miles away, we'll always be in each others' heart. BARF. But true. :)
Love love love love love love love love you. :)
Girl! I'll be praying for you! If you need anything over here in the states, let me know. :) I'm going to miss you, but I am so proud of you for following God's will! You're right... it would be scarier to stay in Denton than to go where God is calling you. Keep blogging! I can't wait to see what is going to happen... I'm sure you can't either. ;) My saving money for Korea trip starts NOW!... or after I get a job and pay some bills. Lol.. LOVE. YOU.
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